What's New?

So, What's new with you? Do people ever ask you that? Sure they do! If you ask me that right now, I am probably not going to come back with the most optimistic, make you feel good answer.  I could say that I recently took a couple of days off of work, (paid vacation days, God bless them!). Jay and Tricia and I went down to Bloomington and spent a little time with Andy. It is always good for my spirits to see my kids, even if it's only two of them; and I absolutely love Bloomington, Indiana. The only down side of that is that, when I originally planned the trip, it was just going to be me and maybe Tricia going down. Jay was supposed to be working, still. But he lost that job at Jayco after only three short weeks. Same problem as before, he works too slow. He is so meticulous about what he does, he just can't get used to slapping something together the way the RV places want him to.  So, I am trying to maintain a good attitude folks, but it isn't working too well.

I'm now thinking that we will probably have to give up our nice place in Middlebury where we are currently renting. I'm also thinking it would be wiser and save gas and also money if we lived closer to my job in Elkhart. These are hard choices. I detest the idea of living in Elkhart. (No offense to those of you who live there. I am just thinking that the places in Elkhart where we could find something to rent on my paycheck alone are not going to be nice neighborhoods.) I did find an apartment to rent in a pretty decent neighborhood near the hospital yesterday. It's a one bedroom with utilities included in the price of rent. It is an upstairs apartment though. We aren't getting any younger, and the thought of moving furniture into an upstairs apartment makes me shudder. Plus, we still have so much stuff...I guess we just need to purge. A lot of this stuff isn't even garage sale worthy. Why are we keeping it?!

I am very unhappy about all of this, but I am willing to face the harsh realities. I was really hoping that we could get things turned around, and that Jay would have finally found a job he could hang onto by now. It has been two years since we sold his cabinet shop. He has not held a job for longer than three weeks since. I am so weary of all of the waiting and wondering. (Christian persons, please do not quote scriptures to me. I am sort of mad at God right now, and I don't want to hear it. Remember, I went to Bible College for two years, and I KNOW the Bible. Jay says "We need to just trust the Lord." Ok, where is He and why doesn't He do something?!)

Please just excuse me for venting, a little bit here. I know there are a lot of people in worse shape than we are. I mean, not just people in Haiti and Pakistan, but right here, in Indiana. I should be thankful, and I really am, that I have a good job. I am thankful, too, that we were able to sell the cabinet shop and our home on CR 35, and didn't just lose them because we couldn't pay the mortgage and so forth. But I am beginning to wonder if we are going to end up homeless. I found out the other day, when I was filing for deferrment, again, on my student loans, that we are actually at poverty level. That's fun.

You might be shocked that I would actually share that. But, hey, my life has always been an open book. I don't care if you know that. I'm not hiding anything.

So, I guess that's what's new with me. And that's enough, for now.